LIFE ♥

I've learned to live with a lot of pain & keep things inside because I felt people would judge me. The older I get, the tougher my life becomes. Sometimes I wish I could just go to sleep one day and never come back. I'm sure everyone has this feeling every now and then, but I have the feeling more often than usual. For some reason I feel as if I've disappointed many people & myself. Many lives have been taken & I always ask myself, "Why not mine?" What have I been doing that's important for me to still be alive? I believe everyone has a purpose in life, except for myself. A lot of times I sit and think about my future, but I never feel like I will reach my goals because I'm not good enough. No matter how hard anyone tries to prove or show their love for me, I still feel invisible. Sometimes I wonder if anyone else feels the hate for themselves as I do for myself? I'll never know...